02 December, 2010
Recently I've noticed I've not worn lolita often. I did wear it out Saturday, but it wasn't anything impressive. Just an outfit I've worn a hundred times. I don't make skirts anymore and I only dream of wearing the clothes I love. Why? Because I'm afraid. I'm not at all afraid of what anyone in the community says, except other lolis. I only know one, and she doesn't like me, but her opinion matters. Her friend told me she didn't like me lolita, and it hurt, a bit. This, of course, won't stop me from wearing it, but my fear of failure just might.
I'm severely afraid, phobic almost, that someone will tell me that I'm doing it wrong or that it doesn't looks good, or worst of all, laugh at my pitiful attempts. This fear of being told I'm not wearing good lolita has scared me away from wearing it when I'd like.
I'm tempted to abandon the label "lolita." Maybe I should be simply me. Not wear "lolita" but just wear the clothes I like, be they hand made, with petticoats, lolita brands, or whatever it may be. But I like the idea of a label. Ugh. Life is so confusing!
Any help? Pweez?
28 November, 2010
10 November, 2010
As is a kind of... tradition with me, I've chosen quotes I liked a lot as I read it, so here they are. Possible spoilers, but I try not to give much away.
- The merrel also knew its wing had not healed. But I could reach a great hight once more before it failed me... And from there I would fold my wings and plummet to the earth as if a hare or a fawn had caught my eye; but it would be myself I stooped toward. It would be a good flight and a good death. And so I eat their dead things cut up on a pole, dreaming of my last flight.
- This was unexpected she almost put her hand on his arm, almost said to him, What it it? Can I help? I would do anything for you -- when she realised, first, the he would not want her to have seen what she had seen, and second, that what she had barely stopped herself from saying was the truth.
- I do not know. Humans talk. It is the way humans are. Perhaps the talking fills the years; perhaps the years stretch to hold the talking.
- You humans live too long; that's your problem.
- "Those are fairy tales... I am real."
"Just like me... I'm real, too. I just don't know, real what."
- Who knows what teh rules are in a fairy tale?
- What she was was angry.
- She thought she had made more of an effort climbing window frames than she had realised, and then she thought she must be fighting off some lingering odour of...sleep, and then she thought she was probably frightened...what she was was angry.
- Did you ever know two humans so thick?
03 November, 2010
I do have several ideas for posts and for Lessons in Life, but I can't seem to concentrate enough to sit down and write them. The lessons I haven't tried for myself, so I can't say that you should when I haven't, so those are definately on hold.
What have I been doing if not school? Well, I've been lost in the Gig in Robin McKinley's retelling of Sleeping Beauty (At Spindle's End). I've been battling evil in the world of Kingdom Hearts (on my DS of course!) I've been watching mindless shows, or at least looking at them, as I can scarcely even tell you what i've watched. I have often been finding myself staring at the ceiling contemplating new ideas for patterns of dresses or skirts to attempt. Sometimes I ponder on life or love or why their are foam dots on my ceiling. Perhaps the only productive things I've done have been spending time with my well deserving friends I'd been neglecting. I also collected pictures for some future jewelry line or perhaps simply to sit on my computer until a rainy day. I do actually intend to upload some pictures and do a complete update/catch-up life post soon.
I can't really promise that anything will follow this tomorrow, or next week, or when anything will be posted. I can't post when I don't feel it, lest my blogging becomes a chore, so please hold tight with me as I wonder through life for a bit longer.
With much love,
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10 October, 2010
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06 October, 2010
05 October, 2010
Last week, or so, in Psychology, we've been talking about sleep. As I thought about it, I figured it would be a perfect "art" to master. The way sleep works, it has various stages and forms a rhythm that your body needs. Not to get technical, there are 4 stages, re-occurring about 5 times in eight hours of sleep. Each of these cycles of the stages are very important to the body, thus taking hours from sleep, you deprive your body of cycles it needs.
So some say they function better on less sleep. WRONG. Some say they can catch up on weekends. WRONG. The older one gets, the less sleep they need, but it isn't until middle age, or later, that a person needs less than eight hours. As for catching up on sleep, sleep is not money. You can't spend a ton and pay it back later. It simply won't work. Now I'll admit I'm a night owl, but science has shown that getting sleep when it is DARK outside is Vital! Your body naturally wants to sleep at night. Granted, those who work night shifts, don't have this option. You say their body gets used to it? Only after MANY years of the same schedule. This is, obviously, all scientific. Later, I will do a lesson focusing on dreaming and interpretations. But back to science and actual sleep.
I suffer from insomnia. It is the most common sleep disorder, and the only one I will talk about. Insomnia is difficulty getting to sleep, to put it simply. There are medications, sleep aides, to help, but these alter your mind and could possibly cause sleep cycles (the earlier mentioned 4 stages) to become altered. Other then medications and chemicals there are various ways to help an insomniac go to sleep. Here are a few:
- Tense each of the muscles in your body, one at a time, then relax them.
- Don't worry in bed. If you absolutely have to, get up and write all your worries down to relieve your mind of them.
- Make a regular routine. Maybe you get home, homework, dinner, shower, reading, and sleep. Or maybe get in bed with a book and a cup of tea. A routine becomes a signal to your mind that "Hey, anytime these things happen this way, it's time to shut down."
- Consentrate on pleasant things to relax and sleep.
- Don't try to force yourself to sleep, it will only back fire.
- Remove things such as TVs and Computers when you're sleeping. Better yet, TURN OFF THE PHONE! Don't respond to texts or answer phone calls, they'll only cause you to stay awake LONGER by waking your mind back up.
- Focus on breathing.
- Watch out for intrusive lights. Any bright lights, blue lights, red lights, these discract the mind and bother the eyes.
These are only a few things to do. Most importantly, get good sleep, at least 8 hours, during the dark time of day. Like wise, don't nap. It will disrupt the sleep cycle as a whole. If you have to nap, make it no longer then 30 - 45 min, this short time shouldn't disrupt your sleeping at bed time.
Does anyone else have any ideas? Comments?
02 October, 2010
Well here are some pictures, FINALLY some with my black hair!!
*football game with Tiffany <3
*Put-put, with Tiffany. As close to Loli I've been since the fair. 3
*Tiffany being beautiful with a boa!
*like my new hairz? no? Blue's not quite my colour.
*Tiffany and her convieniantly placed hands XD
*Dinner at Subway <3
In case you couldn't tell, I've been enjoying my self throughly :)
I promise I'll post something worth reading soon!!
But not tonight, tonight's movie/craft night XD
25 September, 2010
09 September, 2010
Recently, a friend of my had her heart broken by both a boy AND her best friend. So immediately I stepped up, I know how it feels plus my desire to help out friends in need led to me helping her get over it. So I figured I'd post some tips for others who may need some fresh material for lending a helping hand (beyond the normal ice cream, and prank calling.)
Step One: The Pep-talk and promise. First of all tell her that it's not her fault they're jerks. Continually tell her that she can do this. Then Promise (but only if you're going to keep it) that you'll be there to help her the whole way.
Step Two: NOTES!! I did this for the friend I mentioned earlier, and shel oved it! I took note cards and wrote cute things and inspirational things on each one. I gave them to her and I've seen her look back at them a few times. Another idea isto hide them in her books or around her house, locker, etc. Be creative.
Step Tree: Get her out. My friend and I are now going place and doing things outside of school. Before, we didn't, but now we are. A few ideas are football games, fairs/carnivals, picnics, and the mall (DUH!). "Getting out" doesn't nessicarily have to be in public. Try movie nights at home, cupcake making parties, or craft days. Just get her mind off everything and out of her own house, if you can.
Step Four: Keep your promise. Be there for her. Help her. Go over to her house and help her remove the opposing person's items or items that remind her of them. Take things back to them if it's theirs or if it's gifts or just memories, but them all in a box. From there put the box in the attic or a strage building. Out of sight, out of mind.
Step Five: It's ok to remember. Make sure she knows this. If someone truely meant something to you, you will never forget them. She needs to have those memories, the good and the bad. Don't try to make her forget, it'll only hurt her more.
Those are just some ideas. One last thing I do is share my own mantra. "Trying to ruin his/her life won't hurt them nearly as bad as you getting on with yours will. That is what will keep them up at night, believing they've been forgotten."
Any other tips?
08 September, 2010
On this note, I'd like to start a series, or perhaps on-going lessons. Each month, I hope to post a "lesson" on the art of living. I think this will help me develop my life further, and I hope it will help others. Look forward to this month's post! I'm really excited about this! :)
06 September, 2010
First off, welcome to my new blogger!! After playing with it for a while, I've concluded I like it better than wordpress. Second, note that the text on the banner has change. I, of course, am still and forever Raelynn, but I think that "Curious Wanderings" describes my life right now better. I am just curiously wandering through life see what I've missed and what I've jsut now come to. Wondering who I will be and where I'll be.
Finally, This weekend, Hnter went to the lake with a few friends, so I had nothing better to do. I started cleaning my "closet/dressing room", convinced dad to take me to home depot, and started painting! I wanted to do a before and after thing, but, of course, my camera is still in Hunter's car, so here's a video!
#1 - I look horrible and the lighting is bad, but I'm painting, I don't need to get goo things dirty.
#2 - I call the walls ugly, but they're not really. I actually like the purple, when it was first done. I called it ugly 'cause now it's all dirty and chipped.
#3 - Your first exposure to my black hair! You can't really tell it in the video, but I'll have pictures of it whenever I get my camera back!
#4 - The song is Banana Pancakes by Jack Johnson!!!
31 August, 2010
Yesterday, my lovely, handsome man brought me one of the best gifts (set really) that I’ve EVER received! He brought me a custom Teavana flavoured tea, a beautiful tea tin, and a handy little tea maker. I’m doing a simple and quick review on all of these, thus, Teavana Review.
Precious White Peach White Tea
Product Description: “An incredibly smooth blend of delicious peach pieces and downy white tea buds. “
Health Benefits: “High in antioxidants, aids in detoxifying the body, studies show white tea is excellent for skin/complexion reducing fine lines and wrinkles. “
My Notes: This is am absolutely wonderful tea! I love it. It’s sweet and fruity, though I do add agave nectar to sweeten it a bit more. I like it warm, but I also think it’s wonderful at room temperature (I’ve yet to try it chilled, but I’m sure it’ll be great.) As it cools, the tea taste weakens a bit and the peachy taste shines through. It’s sold as loose tea leaves, which I actually like more. Be careful when brewing, cause white teas are sensitive and tricky. The website directions say to brew for a minute, the lable with mine said two minutes, but the instructions I use are the ones Hunter got specifically form his favorite sales lady. She said to brew for only 45 seconds, because the longer the tea brews, it can and will get bitter. I really love this tea. I really suggest it to anyone who likes tea, or more specifically, sweet or fruity teas.
Product Description: ”Our new and improved tea maker brews the perfect cup every time! It is the most efficient, simple and clean way to steep tea. Simply add tea and water at the correct temperature, then put the tea maker on your favorite mug. The patented drain mechanism will strain the tea into your cup and keep the leaves in the tea maker. Four piece construction allows you to remove the filter for cleaning and easily reassemble. Brews 16oz (2 cups) of tea and fits cups with a 3.5 inch diameter. Made of sturdy polycarbonate that is BPA free.”
My Notes: This little machine is one of the handiest things I have ever used/had/seen. The moment we pulled it out of the box, I had to use it. (Wanting to try the tea helped the rush a bit.) I really like that I can make the tea cup by cup. I heat the water in whatever cup I plan to drink out of (usually a coffee mug as I get annoyed with the darling, but child sized, tea cups.) While the water’s heating I put 2 or 3 teaspoons of tea (I like it strong) in the maker and just pour the hot water in. Brew for the appropriate time, then, the magic happens. This thing pours itself! I love that part of it, straining and filling my cup all in one motion! It especially useful since I use just the water from my drinking cup, i don’t have to worry about over filling it. I absolutely love this product! I recommend this to all tea fanatics.
Washi Tea Tin
Product Description: “Each of these colorful tins is covered in Washi paper, which is handmade from mulberry paper. The random design and color gives each a distinct look. But the tins are different, so your final colors and design are likely to be very different from the one shown. Because of the handmade nature of the paper, we cannot promise specific colors or styles. Each tea tin holds 16oz of most teas, depending on the size of the leaf. And they have a sealable top to keep your teas fresh for up to a year. “
My Notes: The above photo was taken with my webcam since, as I said above, my camera is in Hunter’s car. These tins are beautiful and I love the thought that no one else out the has one EXACTLY like mine. These come in three sizes, 3 oz, 5 oz, and 13 oz. I can’t really say too much about it other then to comment on the custom beauty of it or to compliment Hunter’s wonderful choice in print (from knowing me for so long. Poor guy.) I would consider this a wonderfully loli-esque item, since it it unique and they’re so pretty.
Check out Teavana! It’s wonderful, and is in partnership with the CARE program!
30 August, 2010
Other then that, this last weeks been ok. I’ve had one test in every class in the past week and have another test in atleast two classes friday. Yuck. But I am enjoying the year, it’s not too bad.
Yesterday, Hunter (note he hates country music) went to Black Top Boogie with me!! Best of all, he actually enjoyed himself!!! Then he took me to Pinnacle Mt. and we hiked up to watch the sunset. It was so wonderful I highly suggest sunsets for every couple, cause it’s amazingly sweet and magnificent to watch together. I’ll have pics whenever I get my camera out of his car XD.
What have ya’ll been up to?
26 August, 2010
17 August, 2010
So here’s what he’s had the past two days.
The above bento features:
Turkey sandwich “pencil” & triangle
I didn’t picture it, but his breakfast was a fried egg and sausage on a biscut, to go style. <3
This one features:
Raelynn’s special Chili Concotion
For breakfast (also forgot to picture), pancake sandwiches (two small/medium pancakes with sausage in the middle). Once again, to go style. I also included a “snack” incase breakfast or lunch wasn’t enough. This was apple chunks and banana coins. <3
I’m really enjoying making bentos, even though they’re not as kawaii as I’d like (because kawaii at an all boys school just screams bad idea.) I plan to work on that part with my lunches with special help from the wonderful book Yum Yum Bento Box! <3
Now to enjoy my second to last day of summer and go back to sleep!! Night night <3
05 August, 2010
As I’ve done with every book I’ve read since freshman year, I marked specific parts of the novel that I like to type up and keep for future inspiration and amusement. So here we go :
If ever there was a distraction, it was someone wanting to kill me.
“It figures. You’re the only girl who;d get all emotional about the thought of killing. I don’t even want to think about what goes on when you and [your boyfriend] are alone.”
“Is that a gun?”
“I’m not stopping to find out.”
“Be sorry you lied. Don’t be sorry you loved him. That part of you, part you have to let go, yeah, but still something that’s made you who you are.”
“I can think of many words to describe you, sexy and hot being at the top ofthe list. You know what’s not on the list? Sane.“
“Okay, well, then my job is to be the less crazy one.”
“That I can accept.”
“Your optimism… your belief that you can make anything happen. It’s one of the amazing thing about you. It’s also one of the most infuriating things about you.”
“Maybe my belief in the impossible isn’t so crazy after all.”
Massacres, miracles… it didn’t matter. Everything was cause for a party.
“Wecan argue your messed-up unholy schedule some other time.”
“No dhampir is off my list of evil creatures.”
“Okay. I believe you.
“Do you want me to not believe you?”
“No, it was just easier that I thought convincing you.”
“Don’t you think that if God can supposedly forgive you, it’s kind of egotistical for you not to forgive yourself?”
“I’m addicted to you. Somehow I think you could do all sorts of bad things to me, and I’d still come back to you.”
I I had learned anything about life and love, it was that they were tenuous things that could end at any moment.
Cautions was essential – but not at the cost of wasting your life.
“I cheat at cards and buy liwuor for minors. But I would never, ever force you into something you don’t want.”
Please NOTE: If you like any of these enough to repost or use them, make sure you credit back to Richelle Mead, these are her words.
Still on the books note, I bought four more books today.
◦Beauty – Robin McKinley
◦Spindle’s End – Robin McKinley
◦Don’t Judge a Girl by Her Cover – Ally Carter
◦Blue Moon – Alyson Noël
I can’t wait to get started! I think I’ll read Beauty first
04 August, 2010
I forgot to take a photo of my outfit, but today I went school shopping! All new clothes for an all new year! Here’s the pictures, I’m not in most of them, but only because my tri-pod is broken and the lighting in BOTH of my rooms is horrible! Anyway here we go :
10 July, 2010
Generally that’s what I’ve been seeing on Lolita Secrets. It. Sickens. Me. I understand stateing a point and giving criticism. Isn’t that what so many Lolitas look for online, criticism? But saying that an outfit is ugly, especially dissing a religion? I say that is over stepping a line. I’ll be the first to admitt that a head wrap looks different and, if not in the right colour, can look not-so-great, but it’s not my place to say that it’s ugly. I honestly think many girls in the pictures I’ve seen can pull it off rather well (see above for example.)
I’ve also seen the argument “Lolita is fashion, not religion.” the Get-your-religion-out-of-my-Lolita arguement. That too bugs me. Yes, Lolita is fashion. The head wrap (I only use this example because I’ve seen the most drama about it) isn’t fashion. These beautiful women are not adding it as an accessory, they’d wear it at any other time as well. It is part of who they are. What is Lolita if not a way to express yourself? What is any fashion if you cannot express yourself as who you are? Would we attack a Jewish person for wearing a star of david with Lolita? No? Lets get a bit more controversial. What about a pagan?
I am a Pagan. I will announce that loudly and proudly if ever asked. The only reason I’ve not posted it on here before is that I respect the barrier of fashion and religion. Just because I know and respect the boundries does not mean I’m not going to wear a triquatra or, heavens forbid in my bible belt home, an pentacle with my Lolita. Lolita is part of me. Paganism is part of who I am. The writer, the Cherokee. These are all equal parts of me. If I want to wear a pettit coat with a pentacle and feathers, then I should have the right to without being told I look ugly. Fashion, Lolita specifically (in my opinion), is supposed to be something to bring people together. If the lovely lady above didn’t wear her head dress, nor I my pentacle, nor a Jewish girl her star, nor a Christian girl her cross, could we not all admire a new print or lace quality? Why should a piece of cloth, a necklace, a pendant, a belief, why should it stop us from incouraging eachother and being together as Lolitas?
Just My opinion. Have an arguement? Comment. Nothing rude please. If you disagree feel free to say so politely.
08 July, 2010
It’s kind of hard to say, but for as long as I’ve known of the fashion I’ve been interested in wearing it myself. It’s nice to feel pretty and dress in a way to make yourself feel special, putting on a jumperskirt is almost therapeutic to me.
What do you like to wear when not in Lolita?
I wear loli almost daily, but if I’m taking a day off then I am usually dressed in something appropriate for the tropical climate that I live in. I mostly wear shorts, tank tops and flip flops as they help me to keep cool in the heat. Either that or you’ll find me in pajamas.
Are you in school? If so what is your major/grade?
I’m currently a junior studying at a university in Florida. My major is musical theatre and I just can’t get enough of it. Although I love my classes I’m excited to graduate so that I can start auditioning for productions!
What would you say are your “non-lolita” hobbies?
Outside of loli I have an awful lot of hobbies! I have been reading tarot cards for years and absolutely love it. I frequently do readings for my friends and am constantly looking for new spreads. Besides that I am a total bibliophile so my nose is always stuck in a book. I spend an awful lot of time writing songs, singing and making up alternate lyrics to popular hits. And I just adore playing violent, zombie themed video games!
What kind of music do you enjoy?
I have a very eclectic taste in music, the only genres I dislike are rap and hip hop. I love to sing opera and show tunes but I’d rather listen to swing, pop or synth pop when I’m in a happy mood (Lady Gaga and La Roux are my current favorites). If I’m just sitting around reading then I love to put on relaxing music like Feist or Michael Buble. When I feel romantic I listen to Gorillaz, when I’m cooking I like to put on Elvis, and when I’m getting ready for a fun night out my artist of choice is Michael Jackson!
It is very difficult for me to answer this question without writing a book myself! I love almost all kinds of fiction ranging from historical romances to sci-fi, but I have a particular soft spot for stories about women from different cultures written in first person. One of my favorite authors is Lisa See, both Snow Flower and the Secret Fan, and Peony in Love are heart wrenching and wonderful. I also love Memoirs of a Geisha by Arthur Golden (I was so shocked when I realized that the book was written by a man), The Time Travelers Wife by Audery Niffenegger, The Princess Bride by William Goldman and The Importance of Being Earnest by Oscar Wilde. I have never been able to get into many fantasy novels though, something about them really puts me to sleep!
What do you think is the least Lolita about you?
The fact that I do not prize modesty the way that most girls in our culture seem to do. I think that the human body is a beautiful thing and I don’t see the need to cover it up with long sleeves and long skirts unless the weather is painfully cold. To me a nude body does not automatically imply sex or sexuality, so I rarely feel any urgency to wear long socks or blouses under my jumperskirts.
Any final words?
Live for yourself and the people you love, never limit your happiness!
04 July, 2010
(The church in Scoul, Switzerland is actually the only thing on top of this hill, with the beautiful background of the Alps. I want to go back!)
As far as the trip went, it was amazing! The travel blog, fell through. I didn’t have daily access to a computer, nor did I have time to keep a journal to retype at home. It was a very rushed trip at the begining, but totally worth it! Hampton Court Palace, Tower of London, Normandy, Eiffel Tower, Sanders Field, Amsterdam, Herbourn, and the Swiss Alps, to name a few, were amazing! Scoul, Switerland was by far my favorite town we visited (for living in), though Paris was my favorite vaca spot! I didn’t see the BTSSB shop, nor did Hunter, must be hard to find, oh well, life goes on I was so happy to get this chance, but I think I’m happier to be home. I’ll get pictures up later, right now I think I’ll take a nap. “Rest and hydration,” the doctor said, he forgot to say that my men would be waiting on me hand and food. I love them so.